Hmmm.... I have lot of time these days. Putting down the papers often lets you have a lot of peace of mind. Today as I sat reminiscent of my 2 years 3 months of my corporate life and beyond that flashed in front of me. What great I did in these 2 years.. Practically nothing. I still remember 16th of August 2007 when life put me in a big dilemma. TCS or THBS? both had joining dates close by. and there I began my corporate life with THBS.Bootcamp(that's what they call the training here) was whole lot of fun and challenging. But then came December and I get a surprise of a lifetime. I was assigned to a project team. Technology (WTF) some old dead wood legacy. I felt cheated. How can they do such thing to me? It was my first encounter with the stark but ugly reality of over hyped Indian IT industry. If you do not have the strength people tend to play with your life and that exactly what some ar*eh*le had done. But the die hard optimist in me said, "Mate this is an opportunity to change the course of your life". That day I decided no more of this bullshit now and enrolled for CAT coaching at TIME. Things started off in a positive note. I saw my mediocre colleagues bragging about their little piece of shits(You don't call changing 2 if conditions and adding five -six line of random codes here and there development) and yet it was marketed as if its real worth (I sometimes laugh at the very idea of sitting till 8 in the night just for doing a clearcase checkin-checkout). Yes if that is what the work an IT company does, hats off, I am better at my own. Result a silent resistance, no serious work, leaving at 6 (due to which I was written off as useless - but I gave it a damn), devoting time for myself. And in june mocks began. I was confident of my preps. so far, scoring was good, life was easy (thanks to being written off - no responsibilities), drawing 22k a month for doing nothing. Seems like a dream isn't it?
But nemesis fell. I was moved to a legacy support project. Perpetrators had got it perfectly. And then my gruesome battle with everyone started. Honchos had already fucked up in the planning and worse was to come. Here I scored 95%le in one of my mocks and I am dead sure to make it. Next day I am asked to hand over my passport to travel onsite (I was asked before and I had refused it but they were hell bent to send me). The cat and mouse game began. Somehow I got myself out of that mess, but desitny had something else for me in place and those 3 months of my life were nothing short of a living nightmare. I remember fighting every bit for giving the entrance exams for which I had prepared the whole year. (BTW I was working 15-16 hrs a day no weekends... in short life all screwed up a big time). The only fresh consoling breeze in my life was mom who was in B'lore for those days.
Its was her lap which gave me peace. Scriptures say it correct, mom's lap is heaven. I had a fight with almost all the seniors in my team. I already had a too good relationship with them and it was deteriorating further.
Anyways it was 09 Jan 2009 - CAT results were out. I had fucked it up and done it royally. merely managed to score 92%le. The world came crashing in front of me. Other entrance tests had followed the same collision course and some even worse. What was this fighting after all for? I reached my all time low. It was a similar situation when I had screwed my IIT and other entrance tests after dropping one year, only the location was different. Nothing practically improved for me. Worked like ass to overcome my frustrations. Luckily someone noticed and I was offered onsite again. This time I had no commitments and I said yes.
Life began with a full throttle in UK. I would say I had some of the best moments of my life there. 11th of April 2009(when the CAT 2008 final results were out),was what I had promised myself sometime back to make it the happiest day of my life, and indeed God made it for me but Kahani main thoda twist hai. I was roaming around in London. I smiled to God and said, "Hats off to you Boss". Anyways I had full fun for 3 months (ensured I worked little and make a hell lot of money). But this had to come to an end and I returned to India on 21st of June 2009 and headed straight to Lucknow (no B'lore please).
Returned to B'lore after a week of holidaying. Got myself good rating but my past sins had me. As put there was no hike.WTF stagnant at where I started 2 years back. Anyways I had understood the tricks of the trade. Work less, Brag more and there you are my boy. I had the power of being the critical resource. But all this was leading no where. I had to take some stringent measures now. Mustered all my energies and focused on CAT 2009. All the more had another offer and they are providing me avenues to finance my Dreams. So decision was quite simple. Escape from the Alcatraz :).
So now I have full time for myself and let us hope for the best.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Destiny's Design
What is it??? Ever heard of it??? Well perhaps never noticed !!!!...
O K enough of questions. Every mortal has something written for him, called Destiny's design. Why is it so? Who writes it? Why does someone else writes it? Can it be challenged? Can it be changed? Well a lot of questions haunting my mind at same time. Some answers known some unknown, some out of life ( Well I have lived 23 years of my life now and I do know a little bit of it :))
Our mythological scriptures say it is written, God has written it for you. But I ask why is it that he has written? Why can't we write our own.. Yes there have been many people who have written their own. As Mukesh Ambani says "Destiny is a matter of choice, not chance". But how does one knows whether the moment now is the chance or not. A mix of logic and intuition.
So it depends on you to to make your choices. Yes not every choice you make is right. You fail, fail badly, you are totally reduced to dust, but the strength is in being a phoenix, rising from the ashes. It the God's way of making you learn your life lessons.
Many a times people are stranded at the crossroads in life. Some sans choice, some spoilt by choice. Life always gives choices, and it is always relative.. one good, one better or one bad and one worst. Now it we who need to decide which is better in that matter of timeframe. These are choices that either propels to scale the zenith or sinks to the abyss of oceans.
Now the next question.Can the destiny's design be challenged?
Yes it can be. The human spirits are strong enough to do anything.All it just takes is to believe in it the will to do it and courage and conviction to stand by it.Yes, whenever someone tries to challenge the destiny, make one's own road, there are challenges, there are roadblocks, there are somtimes situations where you hit the cliff headon and then fall down wounded, bruised. The strength is not to give up. It is to hit back harder, to be stronger and take a leap faster and higher. Develop a wisdom, have a vision and work towards it.
Those who say I didn't get it because it was not in my destiny are cowards. They have never really fought for it.
So never give excuses, never blame anyone. Just do it :)
O K enough of questions. Every mortal has something written for him, called Destiny's design. Why is it so? Who writes it? Why does someone else writes it? Can it be challenged? Can it be changed? Well a lot of questions haunting my mind at same time. Some answers known some unknown, some out of life ( Well I have lived 23 years of my life now and I do know a little bit of it :))
Our mythological scriptures say it is written, God has written it for you. But I ask why is it that he has written? Why can't we write our own.. Yes there have been many people who have written their own. As Mukesh Ambani says "Destiny is a matter of choice, not chance". But how does one knows whether the moment now is the chance or not. A mix of logic and intuition.
So it depends on you to to make your choices. Yes not every choice you make is right. You fail, fail badly, you are totally reduced to dust, but the strength is in being a phoenix, rising from the ashes. It the God's way of making you learn your life lessons.
Many a times people are stranded at the crossroads in life. Some sans choice, some spoilt by choice. Life always gives choices, and it is always relative.. one good, one better or one bad and one worst. Now it we who need to decide which is better in that matter of timeframe. These are choices that either propels to scale the zenith or sinks to the abyss of oceans.
Now the next question.Can the destiny's design be challenged?
Yes it can be. The human spirits are strong enough to do anything.All it just takes is to believe in it the will to do it and courage and conviction to stand by it.Yes, whenever someone tries to challenge the destiny, make one's own road, there are challenges, there are roadblocks, there are somtimes situations where you hit the cliff headon and then fall down wounded, bruised. The strength is not to give up. It is to hit back harder, to be stronger and take a leap faster and higher. Develop a wisdom, have a vision and work towards it.
Those who say I didn't get it because it was not in my destiny are cowards. They have never really fought for it.
So never give excuses, never blame anyone. Just do it :)
Saturday, June 06, 2009
First Post
Location - Bristol, United Kingdom
So here I am ... writing my first post.
An obvious question .... why enigmatic idiosyncracies.... well, I am back from office after a tiring friday, its raining outside here (well can't really trust the weather here) so no question of freaking out for the weekend and also I am in no mood to cook today. Already had a cheeze laced chicken sandwhich and now stuggling with a plate of maggi in one hand and this laptop in other hand. All this has a cumulative effect and thus rises from no where is what is called enigmatic idiosyncrasies.
Next question why so wierd name... actually this was what came in my mind at first... thanks to British and their absolutely out of world(for desis like me) sense of humor. I have been living and working with them for quite a time now and this has begun to reflect in me now. No I have not forgotten my Indian mannerism and value system, its just that a fusion of east and west has begun which results in smoky cheeze baked chicken curry with desi masalas.
And last question how did this blogging bug bit me????
Aah a long story but I will narrate in short. So for sometime for now I had been reading quite a lot many articles about various things on the blogs. I sensed this unexplored territory interesting, so why not try a hand in this, seems a cool stuff.And wow one fine day with a combination of a lot of internal and external factors this begins and wow what a begining.... Everything going for a toss.
Well there is always a first time for everything, and nothing has worked for me in the 1st go, so I really don't know where it will go. Whether I will drive it or it will drive me... lets seee....
O.K . if you have cruised saftely till here now I can be sure that you can move ahead without ******** yourself. I know whatever I have written till now does not makes sense, but I am not writing to make sense at all. I do that elsewhere and this blog is free from all homo sapien senses :)
So here I am ... writing my first post.
An obvious question .... why enigmatic idiosyncracies.... well, I am back from office after a tiring friday, its raining outside here (well can't really trust the weather here) so no question of freaking out for the weekend and also I am in no mood to cook today. Already had a cheeze laced chicken sandwhich and now stuggling with a plate of maggi in one hand and this laptop in other hand. All this has a cumulative effect and thus rises from no where is what is called enigmatic idiosyncrasies.
Next question why so wierd name... actually this was what came in my mind at first... thanks to British and their absolutely out of world(for desis like me) sense of humor. I have been living and working with them for quite a time now and this has begun to reflect in me now. No I have not forgotten my Indian mannerism and value system, its just that a fusion of east and west has begun which results in smoky cheeze baked chicken curry with desi masalas.
And last question how did this blogging bug bit me????
Aah a long story but I will narrate in short. So for sometime for now I had been reading quite a lot many articles about various things on the blogs. I sensed this unexplored territory interesting, so why not try a hand in this, seems a cool stuff.And wow one fine day with a combination of a lot of internal and external factors this begins and wow what a begining.... Everything going for a toss.
Well there is always a first time for everything, and nothing has worked for me in the 1st go, so I really don't know where it will go. Whether I will drive it or it will drive me... lets seee....
O.K . if you have cruised saftely till here now I can be sure that you can move ahead without ******** yourself. I know whatever I have written till now does not makes sense, but I am not writing to make sense at all. I do that elsewhere and this blog is free from all homo sapien senses :)
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